Blacks and Whites…

Well, I’m doing okay. I haven’t updated in a while… then again, I have little to say. My sister did stop by last Sunday, though. The past Monday and Tuesday I watched an anime Shred suggested to me. I liked it. The beginning was slow and rather confusing for me, but it got better. Despite I liked it I doubt I’ll watch it again… If I do, it will not be any time soon either. It was the sort of show I often have trouble keeping up with. Those cause headaches.
I really can’t remember anything before that… Yeah, last week and the week before that is no longer in my memory apparently. Bad me…
I have been drawing some and writing some. That second story is still going, but no inspiration is coming. I’m just writing as I go along now. The drawing has oddly been inspired by the story as well as a short story I wrote. What is the inspiration? It is chilling. I think it is a good thing Jovan doesn’t know me anymore. My muse is Pierrot.
What is so surprising about that? I have a character who is nicknamed such and in side stories she has been known to clown and such. It should be normal. Not in my case. Writing is one thing, drawing is another. Admittedly, I wouldn’t mind showing them to the aforementioned Jovan because he has coulophobia.  Then I stop myself because I know that would be undeniably cruel.
Anyway, yeah… I’ve been drawing French clowns of all things. They are headshots really, but still. I cannot say my drawing experience has ever led me to believe something like this would be a subject. It rather clashes with my all my other drawings. Heh…
While back when I decided to pick up the name “Pierrot” for my character, it was just a brief passing. I read a small summary of the character, a bit about Commedia dell’Arte and thought… “Wow… he reminds me of my character a bit.” Then, since my character had a nickname for her best friend, I figured, why not have her friend give her a nickname? Thus… Pierrot it was.
Well, after… like… half a decade later or so, I am now actually reading up more on the character. In the end, I do believe he is endearing and in turn like him because he reminds me of my character. Bah!
In all this reading, I’ve also wound up reading some on clowns. There was a bit of history, a bit on the phobia of them and such. I think the majority of them are freaky looking. I can somewhat understand Jovan’s fear even. Old posters of Barnum and Bailey clowns should have scared every little kid on the planet. Still, so far, all of this has been strangely interesting. I even learned a bit about mimes.
Clowns, mimes and so forth are strange… but I have come to appreciate them in the similarity to how one appreciates a ballerina. Strange, some might think… but it is true. (By this I mean the real entertainers…) The energy, the ability to make use of any unforeseen situation, complete control of your physical movements and so forth… that is admirable.
Another change is… I’m drawing in pencil. I have disliked drawing with pencils for about a decade now. They could always smudge easily and the detail could wear away soon. I preferred pens. Well, I can’t do much with pens anymore. I can still do simple cross hatching, sure… but that doesn’t allow as much detail as my more intricate drawings of the past.
Well, with the Pierrot thing came the pencils. I find I’m a bit better handling them now. I don’t shade as nicely as most people can with them; in fact, there are a lot of dark areas as opposed to light. Nevertheless, they are turning out nicely from personal view.
From what I read, something said that “le Pierrot” is often female. Then there was talk of Pierrotte. While that rather left me at loss, I decided to draw the character as female despite Pierrot is a man who pines for a woman. After all, in plays and so forth, the youngest male characters are often played by women. Apparently it was the right decision… they look oddly… pretty.
I finished a picture tonight. It was done in map colors this time… just so it would have a color to it… Red. It is spare more or less… just the lips and about 45% of the background. Other than that is it is black, grey and white. I like it.
Sigh… well, other than the nonsense written above… I’ll still be struggling a bit money wise perhaps. This Saturday I am taking my cat in for his vaccination shots. Hopefully they won’t cost too much. Oi.
I also learned my next dental appointment is October the sixteenth for my teeth cleaning. Such fun! Bah! That is all!